Endlessly.

Never ask your boyfriend who he thinks is his “celebrity crush.” Well, unless you’re me & you feel 10x insecure after he says who she is. 

We promised it wouldn’t be like this again. How we promised that all of our progress has made a difference. So when something comes up & I speak my opinion, why am I easily pushed aside? I’ve set aside my pride for you & have accustomed to dealing with the things you do. But where’s my place in this situation? And the worst thing you can ever tell a girl in general is lie straight to her face even when you don’t mean it. The worst thing you can do to a girl is tell her you love her & in a second without hesitation, decide to up & leave. Where does she stand now? Dealin’ with being pushed aside.

Don’t get me wrong, you’re the best, no the greatest, love I’ve ever experienced by far. You’re a great guy and everyone tells me that. But let me stop just living under what they witness & if you really do want to keep with it, do it then. I love you & this is hard for me but even though I know this is just one of those “moments” I don’t think I can “settle” with you until, we both are ready to just talk & fix it. Otherwise, please, don’t take it the wrong way, but if you can’t find where you need changing, then please don’t turn back to me just yet. 

Dreams.

So lately I’ve been having these weird dreams where me & you are essentially friends. There is no grudge & we talk as if nothing happened. I don’t necessarily even know why it’s happening but i don’t know. Maybe it’s just pointless.

I hate that girls have to experience the time of the month. I feel bloated. And fat.

I honestly hate having anxiety/panic attacks. I’ve had them forever and I know how to handle them but, I mean I still hate getting them. It scares me because at that moment, I suddenly can’t breathe or think. Sigh, luckily I know how to control it. But I just hope it doesn’t ever get too bad.

This is my last weekend of summer.

ivychan:

HAHAHA

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relationships

alyssacouture:

ruhruhraffy:

• text each other, non stop 
• late phone calls every night til we both fall asleep 
• good morning text messages every morning 
• doing everything together
• we both are comfortable with each other……………….
• less texting 
• phone calls end earlier than usually 
• argue, argue , argue 
• someone stops trying 

yuppp

:(

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